Broken Hearted

I never knew what it was like to have a broken heart. That was, until I thought i had finally found love. As people can tell, that never happened. I don't know if it ever will. I saw him, and my heart would beat faster. Now I see him, and my heart drops. I don't know why I always do this. I always like the guys that it could never happen with.

I have the feeling I'll end up alone with 2 kids. I won't mind, I'll have a good, steady job, and be able to support them. I fear I'll never find someone to love me though. I've always had this fear. It's almost instilled in me genetically. I am not weak minded, but I do fear of being alone. I really don't know why. There are many women who are stong, and support their children by themselves.

I however do not know my strengths and abilities yet. I don't know what kind of mother I'll be. I don't know that I'll be strong enough. And that leaves me Broken Hearted.